Moving sucks, but I know that living here will be good for me. I'm thinking about getting xanga instead of livejournal, seeing who views my blog is very appealing. I know you all read, RELIGIOUSLY!

Come over and visit! Brian's here, you love that guy!

This weekend was definitely one that will go down in the record books, friends...

Thurday: Sidewalk sales; always love a good sale.

Friday: Concert w/ Three of my fave people! Ok four, b/c it was @ KELLY CLARKSON. Call me names all you want, but you're jealous that kelly and I are Best friends, so SUCK IT. The concert was too much, and I'm glad that I got to spend it w/ who I did. Especially gretchen and katie. This is their last year here together. And soon they'll be moving off to Cali, to start lives w/o me. :( So I'm glad that we can so something like this, but please, this school year w/ them will be incredible b/c the three of us are "incredible". I'm really glad Emma got to go b/c at first she wasn't going b/c katie's sister was, but F-her! Emma and I will have plenty more glorious times together, this was just one of them! love that kid too much sometimes.

Saturday: Spent some great time w/ a prospect, AAHH, no jinxing. seeing where it'll go. Hung out w/ the originals. Saw Brian and Shawn for the first time in too long, AND Midgie Arms Pistorius, that's what we call her! LOVES her!

Sunday: Spent the day w/ Andy, actually all weekend b/c he let me stay @ his apt. so thankful...Quality time w/ friends cannot be beaten.

And now, my resignation...

Current Mood: grateful

Gotta say, yesterday was very enjoyable.

1. Sidewalk sales during the day, bought some stuff that really didn't need, but when a red leather Ben Sherman bag is marked down from like 70 something to 3, YES 3 F-ING DOLLARS, how am I not going to buy it?
~I went w/ Andy, Emma, and Brad, and I've got to say I really like hanging out w/ Andy. I hope he and I can become better friends. And Emma, well she just goes w/o saying. Any time I can hang out w/ her, I'M THERE!

2. Got some quality pool time w/ the lover, Gretchen. Always fun when we see less fortunate people, kinda makes us feel better about ourselves!

3. Went to City Band Concert in Topeka to watch James and Pete, and to my sheer amazement, I was reunited w/ Amanda McCollough. Name really doesn't mean much to anyone except for my friends from camp during like my junior year. She was THE WORST saxophone player I've ever had to play with, and for some reason they put two of us in the Wind Ensemble that year at camp. She couldn't play any of the music....and now she plays trumpet! Makes perfect sense! She's a MORON.

4. wATCHED Centerstage for the first time last night, and I honestly loved it! Ok, so that's pretty gay, but who really cares?!
~PS, I WANT ME A DANCER! Just something about that movie really kept my attention, especially the dancing scene in the hip hop class. just watch, and you'll know! I think I sighed 4 times during the movie..(Emma, you know what I mean!)

~AND TONIGHT!!!!!!!!~
Kelly Clarkson, ladies and gents, I'm just so ready to go and sing every word to every song!!! Don't judge, and don't be jealous! Hopefully Cheyanne is the opening act *fingers crossed*

And, I'm attending a very crucial party tonight, so hopefully all goes well, nervous, but I'll be fine, i mean please. It's me after all!

Current Mood: excited

So this morning, as Alison and I are preparing to walk to Murphy from Oliver to start our final camp day, she points out an umbrella to the side of us. AND, me being a scavenger, I go over to claim this fairly nice looking umbrella as my own of course, please. Upon further inspection, I come to find out that it is, in fact, a LOUIS VUITTON Umbrella!! This is just too much for me, b/c I am (as is Emma) A label whore. The best part is the fact that it was, um....FREE! Bitch please!

Anyway, camp is drawing to a close, and I'm once again sad. This was a good group of kids too. And I know that I change my mind more frequently than...well anything, I think that once again, I've decided to stay in music ed. I got a compliment from one of the marching instructors the other day, and it really made me realize that I can handle students, and I generally have a really good time when I'm working w/ them. On top of that, I've also realized from camp that certain co-workers will not make such great teachers; This world already has enough shitty teachers that don't give about anything but themselves. Moral of the story...I'm Awesome. Gretchen knows, just ask her. Talk to you soon.

Current Mood: energetic

Note to self: starting a power hour w/ your friends at a lame party where you basically know nobody, & changing the music to "PowerHour Mix" just so it's easier to remember when it's the new minute is probably not a great way to meet new friends!

Another note: Taco Bell right before passing out = my tummy not feeling so hot the next morning...and a Special thanks to some friends who woke up way too early this morning, meaning I had to get my happy self out of bed way before I should have!! It's all fine though. It was nice to actually feel the cool weather at 9:30. Who knew it wasn't always 400 degrees!! Guess that's what happens when you wake up in the morning.

Question: Does a man who appears to have a little problem with thinning hair naturally mean he's way too old? I sure hope not. Go to free state brewery and see jeremiah then get back to me.

Saw Superman last night, and all I want to know is where this brandon routh came from! I honestly don't feel like he's a real human being, just look at him! And don't get me wrong, it was a good movie, but the other "movie goers" didn't make our viewing experience enjoyable. Sitting next to Louise was probably one of the most slovenly men I have ever seen. He had the mega super-duper big ass big gulp drink, which wouldn't be horrible but once the drink was empty, he wouldn't believe it, so he had to suck every last little fucking drop of liquid out of the cup (during a quiet time of the movie, of course). then he had to crunch each pebble of ice, iin the most dainty manner of course, and had to hit the side of his cup to get every last tiny piece of ice...OH WHAT A MAN! Kinda makes one wonder why he came to the movie by himself, doesn't it??

Sitting next to me was a group of people who probably own every superman comic bok ever created b/c they were rationalizing and talking through every scene of the movie...CAN WE PLEASE JUST WATCH THE MOVIE AND ANALYZE ON OUR OWN TIME?!? All I ask is that you sit and admire the sheer beauty of the man known as Superman; he is a specimen; neither Arnold, Louise, nor i can even handle it.

I would have never thought that I'd be missing camp so much, but I really am. It took a while, but I really met some amazing kids this past week. Who was I to doubt that I'd not find campers that like me, I mean honestly!! haha jk. And now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to go listen to some Panic at the Disco or something and cry in my room....pause...Ok, I'm over that! Really though, I will miss some campers. Some in particular.

Oh, and someone find me a job too, K? thanks!!

Birthday Palooza was very interesting to say the least. Austin was cashed about midnight, and really not many people showed up. Something was very awkward btw. emma, nikki, and kristen, which was interesting to say the least. Oh, and the best way to prevent a hangover you ask? Burrito King, my friends. Woke up like a dream this morning!!

Watching Crash for the very first time is hard to do, but let's face it, I'm a trooper...toodles.

Steven

Current Mood: envious

Camp is fine, just very wearing. All's fine. Not really making any advances in my personal life, but getting used to that, lol.

me=boring. sorry to disappoint, maybe someday soon I'll post a good journal entry...maybe. I'm posting on Emma's new computer right now, and I really want an iBook. Damn the virus on my computer.

And now, I must depart b/c they actually expect me to do some work, HAHAHHA!

So junior high camp has started, and while this is the first actual day of classes for them, it feels like it should be the last. All their little "problems" are really getting on my nerves, and I've been told that last night was the most eventful opening night in a long time...great. Oh, and I can already tell that my personality is far too dissimilar than a few of my co-workers...not good. I'm sure it's partly my fault for being such a strong personality (and I'm not using strong in the sense that I have a better personality, although let's be honest; I really do. haha)

At least I got a good last night before camp. We all went over to andy's to swim, play sand volleyball, and mario cart. Fun times 100 fold.

Thursday is Emma's b-day, and I can't wait. Even though we don't get to celebrate yet, I've got a little plan for her day. Even though I can't afford much for a gift, friends like her deserve to know how much I really do value them.

And now dear children, I must sadly depart, as I have to go patrol and make sure there aren't going to be any band camp babies...MMC Alum, holla!!!

Current Mood: "USE THE CROSSWALK!!"

Wow, so summer is sadly becoming just what I didn't want it to. I was worried that by coming homme to work to save money, I'd be cut off from my friends, and here I sit at my computer. phone hasn't rung, no real new messgages unless I make the first step...YOU'RE NOT GETTING RID OF ME THAT EASILY!!! I SHALL RETURN! Let's be honest, friends and social life really are more important than money, am I right??

Current Mood: annoyed

Where else can you find a local downy who is hired by the city to be the official CLOWN of the community? Tonight I was at work when in walks said clown in his "garb." This is scary, please trust me and do not seeek out this clown.

I need to be back in Lawrence w/ my people. Nothing here but working, stinking, sleeping, showering, repeat. Get to go back Wednesday night, I'm SOOOOO past due. Work is really getting to me. I've put in 30-40 hrs. this week, and I'm ready to punch the next retarded customer right in the face.

Also, while I'm offering advice, don't get the new bowl thing from KFC...not a good thing. Not like KFC is incredible as it is, but still...It just can't end well.

Going to watch "The Breakup" tomorrow w/ Rachel. We seem to have this mini-tradition going where we get together while we're back and go to see a romantic comedy. Fun times.

Karen: "What does it matter? Black, white, gay, straight, we all finish ourselves off in the end."

Current Mood: exhausted

Coming home for the first real extended period of time is really a different experience. I came home for Christmas and Spring Break and such, but left Abilene early for both vacations. Anyway, things are just way different... I can't really pinpoint where/what is different, but I just don't feel the same. I guess it's really mostly me that's changed. My first year of college has allowed me to really start coming into my own, and has allowed me to really begin to figure out what it means to be ME.

I think in high school, I was really being who I thought other people wanted me to be. I knew what was deemed acceptable among the students and staff of AHS, as well as community members, so in turn, that is how I conducted myself. And as much as I'd like to say I don't care about the crap anymore, the fact of the matter is I still do. I still feel like I can't be myself when I'm in Abilene. The difference between now and then is that I have gotten to be myself in Lawrence. I wish I could just get the nerve and get it out there, and I'm not sure I really know how people can be so oblivious.

So I layed out yesterday, and effectively succeeded in burning the whitest whites of my body. Uncomfortable? yes! I had shorts on, but burned the upper parts of my legs on both sides and my underarms. Not fun, but eventually, I'll have a tan--or skin cancer, whichever comes first!

I miss my friends.

quote~

Karen: (To random woman next to her in the coffeeshop)"Excuse me, you wouldn't happen to have a breath mint, would you?"
Woman: "Actually, I have one right here in my purse."
Karen: "WELL POP IT!! It's not doing you any good in there!!
Woman: "How Offensive!"
Karen: "Honey, it's your breath, not mine."
Grace: (To the woman as she's leaving) "Forgive her, she has a heart condition. She doesn't have one."

Fun times already this summer. Went swimming w/ friends yesterday at the Reserve. Louise and Brian successfully managed to get really burnt. The also layed in the tanning bed for only a few minutes. None the less, fun times.

Imogen Heap concert last night, so INCREDIBLE! Really hot and a lot of nasties there, but they didn't ruin it for me. Saw Casey there which was great too. Imogen was so good live and she really seems like a cool person. She was just getting over a cold, but it was still so awesome.

So I'm going home today. Should be an experience. Cue snide comments and much aggravation. YAY!

Karen: "So how'd you hurt your back? Running away from good taste?"

So my test went fine yesterday, not really sure of any of my final grades, but at this point I can't do anything about it, so no use in fretting. Gretchen's was really fun thursday, and she posted pics from it. Good times.

SIDEBAR: Emma is SO GORGEOUS! I swear that girl could model. It cracks me up b/c when we're at school and such, she doesn't really try to look nice and stil is way better than many girls (and a couple certain girls in particular). She's amazing; she and matt went to Arkansas this weekend for matt's sister's graduation. She's worried about lookin cute beside Lindy, and I KNOW she'll have no problem! Best Friend!

Tonight: Christina's 21st...WOO!

Monday: Doubly delicious b/c I dont' have to get up early AND...IMOGEN HEAP! So excited...

here's to summer, new friends, keeping my best friends close. Oh and having the best f-ing summer of my life!

Current Mood: happy

Managed to get all packed and checked out of OLIVER!! That is just incredible.

Went to Gretchen's last night and maybe shouldn't have stayed out as late as I did...maybe. Okay, who am I really kidding, I totally should have done it. Surprisingly, I'm feeling alright today, slightly uneasy but it's the price you pay. Last night, I was planning to stay @ the girls' house, but when kristen dropped me off there, it was all locked up, amazing. So I stayed at the dorms for the last time, which was even better b/c all my stuff was packed: pillow, blankets, everything. I definitely slept on my mattress and mattress pad. Except it was probably one of the best sleeps I've ever experienced @ oliver...gee, I wonder why?

Strings test in an hour and a half; good thing I saw Emma last night, otherwise I would have thought the test was at 12, oops. Totally b.s.-ed my way through a concert report, and now you know why sometimes I amaze myself!

Grace: "Hmmm. Well, you've come on a good night. Jack's mother is going to be joining us, and
and she doesn't know Jack's gay."
Karen: "How could she not know? What is she, headless?"

Current Mood: groggy

I'm one weird child...

I'm watching American Idol right now, and after Katherie's performance of "Somewhere over the Rainbow" made me cry. Not absolutely sure why.

Had my very first jury today...didn't go so well; it's over, probably lost my A in Saxophone. For some reason, I've had a FEW other things on my mind.

Things for which I am ready:
Special Someone
To not make myself look like a giant D-Bag whenever I play my saxophone
All A's this semester, but "outlook not so good" according to magic 8-Ball
To clear this damn virus on my compter

People amaze me all the time...

I have a lot of thoughts swirling in my head right now, and I'm sure many people don't want to hear them.

Current Mood: weird

Weekend=Fun...

Nothing too exciting, personally; would have liked for something to have happened, especially last night, but I'm going to turn over a new leaf and not be a retard about things.

Friday Night: Studio Party @ Nate's. One would have thought I was bulemic b/c I BINGED! His cooking is so so good, and I'm just like a normal fat kid who cannot and WILL NOT stop eating! Much merriment to be had. Nate's an awesome host, even when someone (say Tim Schapker) walks through, yes THROUGH a screen door. He bent the frame to hell. Kids these days... Later @ a party, I laughed and laughed, mostly w/ Nikki, Gretchen, and Gretchen's roomate, Katie. "MAKE SURE MY WHITE CAPRIS DON'T GET MESSED UP!!" Laughter was also due to random drunk kids on the roof of this house, us launching a bottle of grape soda down an alley and watching it explode, and of course...BEER PONG. Which I don't play b-t-w, i just watch...

ANYWAY, Saturday as follows:

Had a good start to the day. Confided in James that Brian and I weren't going to be living @ brandon's next year, (and I use the term confided very, VERY loosely) It's really great when I can't really use that term though, really. I love it. Eventually Brian was going to tell Brandon, he just hadn't yet, but I'm hoping this is for the best. Just really makes me mad that it had to go down like this.

Saturday night was fun too. Met new people and again, laughed a lot. Kinda freaked out though, well internally. No biggie. Not gonna ramble, wouldn't be prudent.

Seems to be a growing trend as of late that the longer I am "friends" w/ someone, the further and further we grow apart. Starting to really not care anymore. Guess I'm just finding out who my real friends are. As is life and growing up...Oh well, I still "have a little love in my heart."

Current Mood: awake

Except I'm kinda on the opposite end as she right now. But I think it'll be ok...was hoping to use this summer to have a "meet and greet" of sorts, but due to financial constraints, it appears as if, my social life will again be put on hold, as finances have gotten the best of me, or the lack thereof.

Getting excited to finally leave Oliver Hell and move into a real place w/ real roomate!!

Oh and Kristen just posted pics from the party this weekend, and me con el pelo amarillo!! how's that for the spanish, bitches! lol... I def. got attention today, and not necessarily the kind I would have liked. But it's hair people! Mine will grow fast, before anyone knows, it'll be cut and the color will be gone. I think some people should lighten up; then again maybe they just could never "taint" their precious image, hence nothing fun...Oh well, i'm moderately happy w/ the outcome, and lindsey really liked it...

My little weather bug just popped up w/ a thunderstorm warning! Yay! I love a good storm, but would like to be w/ someone during it...Oh well, I'll wish, and hope, and dream...or however that song goes.

going to bed, I'll miss you! Have a little giggle on me; (and no, not at my expense!)

Karen: "I love you like the mother I had committed against her will."

Current Mood: flirty

What can i say, I'm really not a catch; don't know what i was thinking...Still keeping my eye out there; my glass eye, that is!

so this weekend was pretty fun; I've got a new friend I'm really liking and can't believe that we haven't been friends before now. Lindsey cracks me up!! We're too similar. Went to On the Border to celebrate cinco de mayo with Ashley Benes, Brad Petzold, Lindsey, and one of their friends, matt. Anyway, after that, I BLEACHED MY HAIR...random but still fun. Looked a lot like eminem, which isn't good, but still cuter! I hope. Brad died his hair too, but really didn't like it and ended up re doing it 2 more times. When i finally saw him again, it was way dark. I hope he ends up liking it.

Saturday was the studio recital, which went pretty well. The 'rents came down and watched me perform for the first time this year, so that was nice. I still have this competetive thing that comes about every time this certain person comes along. I can't help it, and it happened again. Pretty sure that doesn't make me play any better, so i need to stop. Saturday night=Nate's recital, which was IN-CREDIBLE...That guy is just plain amazing.

After that...dancethon, kegathon @ scott, austin, and tim's. Which turned into a brawl b/c of all these rand-os showing up. Was totally fun at first when it was just all the people that were actually invited, but after that it got too big and out of control. I guess Scott ended up getting his wallet stolen too. That just really sucks. Great Guys, bad deal.

All in all, twas a pretty good weekend, and if i can just get through the rest of school and finals, then it's IMOGEN on the 22nd!!

I wish that my living situation and job situation would pan out, but i think it's getting there...

~END

jack: "Well I'm going to go put the mail in the slot, then I'm off to the post office."

Current Mood: Lazy Sunday recovering...

Wow, time is flying by, and I can't believe it. I'm trying to enjoy life and such b/c I know that when I blink, it'll all be over, but I really can't help saying SUMMER BETTER GET HERE, like whoa.

I had a nice conclusion to my otherwise dismal weekend. Except I think I have this problem where each new person I meet, I end up thinking about being more than friends and then get let down. But I think that subconsciously the new people that I meet and really keep talking to are only those that I would want to have a relationship with, if that makes any sense. This one is really smart, funny, (with a scarily similar sense of humor to mine! scary...)good dresser, (lol, like that REALLY matters)and good looking. Kinda makes me wonder why someone like that wastes time on me, but I need to start being more confident. o-KAY, I'm a catch!! ^_^ jk, jk, jk. If anything this new friend is the CaTCH. Anyway, it'd be nice if this could go somewhere, but I think i just have to give things time, so we'll see.

Accidentally slept through Theory today, and I'm sure he probably gave participation points again today; I swear that's the reason I've been slipping on my grade. He says "I dont have an attendance policy, so instead I'm going to give extra points to those who show up b/c we have such dismal attendance." So wouldn't logic tell him to have some sort of attendance policy!!!?? Oops, sorry, that's just me being rational and using common sense--something that happens far too rarely anymore!

Anyway, I is dirty and hungry, so I've gotta leave...

People, enlighten me to your music!

It's quote time, ladies...

"Rule #1, unless you're served in a frosted glass, never come within 4 feet of my lips." from guess who... ;)

Current Mood: hopeful